tabula rasa

and i saw you again.
same place, we used to be at lololol
*yay* i felt like vomiting while i am in the middle of my spag dinner then i saw you, nabusog ako hahahaha!!!

seriously, i palpitated. for good a reason: i am OVER you.
you look oh so good, but i look better :D

august is <3
i am to start from a clean slate *yay*
i hope you don't bite hahaha kinda slow learner here :P
i am so recharged. (like hell hello? 9 f*cking months!!!)

'wag lang sana na naman maiinlababo. PATAY TAYO DYAN.

PS:

i promise to be active on blogging, for i have imaginary readers again.
i don't write/blog for you anyway.
it's a personal journal.
read it or not.
i don't care bwuahahahahaha!!!

night :))
:)

cou-wink-qee-dink-key

three times!
three times it is!

1. coffee shop
2. lrt
3. makati

out-of-sight;out-of-mind don't/doesn't apply.

can't complain, for i don't complain if i receive blessings.
i know it won't last. the question is: until when it would last.
i can't take it any longer.
i want to feel very liberated.
i want to explode.

you didn't change, any bit.
the same person that i would fall in love over and over again.
the same person that would never ever ever fall for me.

you're still you when i am no longer me.
i love you.
i love you so much.
i love you so much and it hurts me.

patience it is.
for i am waiting for the right time to come.
and i'll be back.
with all smiles.

random

i didn't forsee that after graduation i'll struggle.
i am confident.
i am achiever.
i belong to the upper 1/4 of my kind.
i am younger that they are.

well, i guess because i fell in love.
on a right time, with the wrong reasons and for the wrong person.
i am a first timer.
i don't afford to be involved on trial and error for i am no longer a high school student.

i am more that willing to give everything and i am sure you're also more than willing to accept everything. but, i am pretty sure that you are not willing to return even anything.

i am stagnant, five months since then.
calculating everything yoy+me= 2 months.
it's not even mutual.

wala naman pala sa haba yun.
akala ko dati mas mahaba, mas masakit.
no guarantee.
feelings were invested.
this is the price to pay for forcing somthing.

haven't since you for ages.
i saw you on the train.
it was odd.
i still love you, i still do.
it hurts. it really does hurt.

i'm looking forward laughing outloud so hard because of this sick things.
it sucks! it really do.
part of growing up.

akala ko masasanay ako.
akala ko lang pala :P

the school boy (what actually happens right after college graduations?)

i miss wearing my white polo baring, black slacks, back shoes, back pack/mail man bag and receiving my 250php baon :)

it's been a year since i graduated from college, yay!
nowadays, it's a privilledge to have college diploma.
i know i've been very idealistic and preoccupied that i am a college graduate.

i took every chances that come my way. i race. dapat mas mauna akong magkawork than anyone else. then, i struugled.

i got employed early june. pretty cool, huh? for 5 months it turned my life upside down. i laugh, cried, smiled, frowned and fell in love.

it's a heaven and hell on earth :)

after a year?
what really happened to me?
ouch.
i can't brag anything.
i know i'm ain't that fresh compare to the fresh graduate.
but, we share the same sentiments.
we both struggle.

the constellation

last year it was ate, 7 months ago it was kuya and today it's lola. have a safe trip lowla! say my hi to the obamas :)

we've waited long years for this day to come. petitioning is damn so need of patience.
after lola passed the consul's interview, before we knew it all bags were packed.

it's so sad letting a family member leave the house. para kaming nakatira sa bahay ni kuya. 7 kaming housemates. si lola, si nanay, si tatay, si ate wena, si kuya romel, ako at si bebe. we are not waiting for the big night to arrive kasi wala nmn :P and now it's down to the 3 of us: ako, si bebe and si nanay.

before i enter college, tatay decided to left the house para mag stay sa bulacan. 3 hours papunta at 3 hours pauwi, araw-araw.

last year, it was ate wena. that's her dream. sabi nga ni tatay: ganun talaga. walang mangyayari if forever din tayong magsasama-sama. may kanya-kanyang pangarap ang mga anak na atin, sadly di tayo kasama sa lahat ng pangarap nila. she trying her luck at canada.

7 months ago, it was kuya romel's time. same reason with tatay, malayo. araw-araw, nakakapagod. he'll leave the house tulog kami, pagdating nya tulog na kami hehe.. less cost, less energy exerted din. malayo ang bangko sentral ah. saka, he's old enough to live like an independent bachelor. kaya nmn na niya, bakit hindi?

then, today it's lola's time. napaka-candid pa din ni lola. parang wala lang. i know deep inside pangrap nya din yun. it's never too late :)united states of america

dati-rati nagrereklamo ako.
ansikip naman ng bahay natin.
ang init naman ng bahay natin.
andami namang tao sa bahay natin.
ang ingay naman sa bahay natin.

well, wish granted.

i look forward na umuwi ng bahay na mairereklamo ko ulit ang sandamakmak na reklamo kong hindi ko na mairereklamo ngayon.

chuckie's love story. :]

Almost Lover by A Fine Frenzy

Your fingertips across my skin
The palm trees swaying in the wind
Images
You sang me Spanish lullabies
The sweetest sadness in your eyes
Clever trick



Well I never want to see you unhappy
I thought you'd want the same for me

[Chorus]

Goodbye my almost lover
Goodbye my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be?
So long my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
Should've known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do

We walked along a crowded street
You took my hand and danced with me
Images
And when you left you kissed my lips
You told me you would never ever forget
These images

Well I'd never want to see you unhappy
I thought you'd want the same for me

[Chorus]

Goodbye my almost lover
Goodbye my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be?
So long my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
Should've known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do



I cannot go to the ocean
I cannot drive the streets at night
I cannot wake up in the morning
Without you on my mind
So you're gone and I'm haunted
And I bet you are just fine



Did I make it that
Easy to walk right in and out
Of my life?

[Chorus]

Goodbye my almost lover
Goodbye my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be?

So long my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
Should've known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do

still hurts like a brand new shoes
four loooong months
and i'm ready
out-of-sight;out-of-mind
happier
better
wiser


no regrets; just lessons
happiest days of my life after all
loneliest days, indeed.
falling in love, so easy.
falling out of love, i don't know. ask them.

time.time.time
:)

waking up, sobbing = so true.
haha!
been there, done that.
i'm lucky i have friends.
i can't blame anyone, including you.
and i still love you

...and it ends there.

the twist

sabi na sa'yo eh =P
i got a call/txt from my latest application's boss.

"I need to talk 2 u, pls get ready i'll be calling u in 20 mins.

"

then....

another text message:

"I called your haus 2log ka pa. Cge mamayang 10 am nalang. Thank u."

KAMOTE, DI BA?

parang gusto kong ma-deactivate sa mundo hehe

then, finally. presto.

"were u able to think about it? Offer is **k 4a start and then 6mons we shall evaluate."

then i replied:

Good Morning, Ma'am. Yes, I am able to think about it. I think you're right, I may not belng to operations setting. And the new offer is much better. I am very appreciative about it. Just let me know when should I report and settle everything. Thanks!"

then, here comes the phone call:

"Are you accepting the offer or not?"

*yay*

pray for me :)